Let me start by telling you what my "way past" would be: paying off our adoption loan early and returning to Russia, let's say, in about a year and a half, and bringing home a sibling for Landon.
Now that you know where my "way past" lies, let me take you back to last Monday, the day after Mother's Day. Wait...no, let's take it back to Mother's Day. I was sitting at my mom's dining room table surrounded by my family. Landon was playing with one of my sisters in the living room, and just having a great time. My grandmother commented on how amazed and happy she is that Landon is just thriving here in our family. He was having a blast, laughing hysterically with everyone! She even said at one point, "You know, Liz, God's not done with you guys yet. You are going to have more children." I laughed and said, "Yeah, yeah, everyone always says that- 'you'll adopt, then you'll get pregnant'. But, I don't want to get pregnant. I want to adopt again. I want to go back to Russia and bring home another one of those little faces that we left behind'" And, my grandmom immediately replied, "But what about all the kids here, Liz?" And, I just sighed.
Fast forward to Monday morning. One of my friends at school had a rare change in her schedule which made it possible for us to have the same lunch time. So, we decided, impromptu, to enjoy lunch together in her classroom so we could catch up. Mid-way down to her room I realized I forgot my cell phone and really wanted to check in to see how Landon was doing so far that day. When I went back and I grabbed my phone, I realized I had missed a call from our social worker. Thinking it was a quick question about our pending 6 month post placement visit the next day, I quickly called her back. Side note here: we were in her quiet room, just the two of us, and not the crouded, loud teacher's lounge I am always in for lunch! As the call went on, I just kept getting more and more wide eyed:
Her phone call was to ask us if we would consider thinking about and praying about adopting an infant whose birth mother is due end of this July!!! Without sharing anymore details, just know how crazy this sounded at first to me. It was like the jitters of our referral call all over again, but without the expectation of a call! I called Greg right away, and honestly, I thought he would dismiss the idea right away. So, I said, just think about it, and pray about it, and we'll share our thoughts on it together tonight when we get home. To my surprise, he had not dismissed the idea. We both had the same thoughts.
Our initial reactions went something like this: Are we crazy? We can't handle another child yet. What about Landon's adjustment? I barely have our new routine down now as it is! Could there be any less time for ourselves? But, once we got over the initial shock, and prayed about it more, we realized that all the reasons we could come up with for saying "no" were selfish reasons and temporary challenges. On the positive side, we thought- we have been so amazed at how well Landon has been attaching to us- maybe God was preparing him for this all along? Landon and his new baby brother or sister would be 2 1/2 years apart- what a great age difference! And, afterall, our verse from the start said that He had plans to prosper us! We just never expected SO SOON nor had we ever in our wildest dreams thought that we would be given an opportunity in such a way. If you knew all the other details, you would probably have the same response our family and friends seemed to all have: this must be God! Go for it!
After a week of lots of thinking and praying, we decided that we both felt that this was God's plan, and that, as my grandmother said to do, we were to just say, "Lord, here I am, use me." And just let go and see where this leads.
I had a women's retreat this past weekend with our church ladies. One of the speakers was the daughter of one of my favorite speakers- Tony Evans. Her name is Priscilla Shirer. She spoke on Ephesians 3:20-21: "Now unto Him who is able to do EXCEEDINGLY, ABUNDANTLY ABOVE all that we could EVER ask or even think, to Him be the glory and honor for ever and ever." Wow- what a perfect verse to sum up our week! God has, as she said, "gone WAY past MY way past!"
We are so excited to begin this journey, and to see how the pages of our lives continue to unfold. Please keep us in your prayers over these next two months as we prepare Landon, our home, and ourselves to welcome home a new baby. Yes, that's right, I said TWO MONTHS!
To end on a funny note, a moral of this story could be: Whenever someone who is "in tune" with God says that God is not done with you yet, and that you are going to have a baby...like the angel did to Sarah and Abraham, or like my grandmom did to me, DO NOT LAUGH!!! For if you do, you are bound to be looking back, like I am, and like I am sure Sarah was and laughing even more. Thank you, Lord, for not making me wait until I am 99 !